oh i love the spring it is is here and it is so big everything is full of water and the air is full and all the hope i lost in winter is thrown back to my face by the cold and warm winds full of the smell of the leaves and the grass and everything is so so living

hello again reader!! i hope you have had the most wondrous and heartwarming of holiday seasons. mine was very warm and bright. my first christmas with my partner!! i got him a 3DS and modded it for him to add custom badges and put games on that i knew he would like ^_^ i got one for myself too so we can play games together.

we all watched muppet christmas carol together, the night before christmas eve. it's the most important part of christmas to me. i think it is the perfect christmas movie, and one of the most perfect movies ever ever. on christmas eve we exchanged gifts. it was very pleasant and very merry. it is always lovely to have my family in one place.

im a little sad it was snowless but it's ok, i have many many more white christmases ahead of me. giving gifts makes me so happy. i was so happy to see people open my gifts for them. i got my brother a new computer keyboard (the fancy mechanical kind) because his keyboard is very old and he has never ever liked it. i got many sweet gifts too. my mom and i had walked through some local art shops when shopping for presents and i was super in love with a few of the paintings, but never thought i could get one because they seemed too expensive. but my mom actually got two of them for me! i was so surprised. i got many scrunchies too, from my boyfriend and my friend eris from canada <3 my boyfriend made me a little dice/trinket bag too, with my name embroidered inside. so sweet!! we played many games and spent lots of nice time together. oh so lovely! a merry late christmas and a very happy new year from me!! love you!! bye!!

hello reader, i have had such a good few days !! i am in town north of chicago with my parents visiting my brother who lives here, here to see a jacob collier concert together ! on the car ride in yesterday i had my laptop set up so i could play minecraft while i rode :o) i worked on finishing this big hot air balloon!

ive been having so much fun on my minecraft server !!! (when im not dying in lava and losing my newly forged diamond pickaxe with all the good enchantments AARRR) everyone there is so lovely and its so fun to have a little community together.

join if you want!!! the IP address is mc6.themeye.rs!

yesterday evening we got pizza out in town near where we're staying, and decided to go around on a walk afterwards to explore the area and oh my goodness!! it is such a nice place. the streets are so narrow and walkable and the buildings are so old and beautiful , there's this center square park area where there was live music playing and a bunch of people scattered about with chairs and blankets. there's a train station with a florist's shop built in. it is so nice.


and the weather recently!!! it's been unseasonably nice for june. like 50-65 degrees every day for like a whole week !!!
today we got brunch together at this really quaint diner, the waiter was nice, and the food was soo good! then later we headed to the venue for the concert and it was so nice. it was at the ravinia festival in highland park just north of chicago.

it was super quick getting in and parking, the area was super walkable and beautiful, lots of trees and grass, there was this huge old building on the grounds, previously a train station i think? covered in ivy, it was so pretty.

and the actual concert took place in this huge pavilion it was really cool. it was outdoors but there was a ceiling and like it was carpeted and the seating was really nice. it felt indoors but like birds could fly through and you could see lots of trees in your peripheral vision!
lawrence opened the concert and oh my god they were amazing. halfway through everyone got up out of their seats to dance. it was incredible. and jacob collier's mom was there to perform a song with them! and jacob's show was obviously incredible!! ive been to 2 previously already so i somewhat knew what to expect but it was still amazing. and!!! near the end, he was doing an encore song and was singing as he walked around the aisles in the pavilion, and walked by me and i went for a high five but he left me hanging. but then he turned around, looked me in the eye and gave me a high five!!!! it was crazy!!!! ahhh it was such a nice day!! i hope you have had a good day too dear reader!!! best wishes !!! byebye!!

i think a lot of people regard the scale of the universe as something scary, that its size means we're insignificant.
but i took notice of the beauty of the tiny water droplets left on the tiny hairs on my arm from the raindrops the other day.
i have never felt the scale of the universe as something to fear.
we are all so close to each other.
there is all of this grand universe of unknowable proportion, and you have a favorite food. and a favorite smell. and a favorite person. and people who love you. we have picnics and we sing songs and we make food for people we love.
we leave signs to tell the universe we are here. two golden records attached to objects we sent as far into space as we could, containing our languages, our music, sounds of earth and its animals, the sound of a kiss and the brainwaves of someone thinking about what it feels like to fall in love, along with instructions on how to find us if the records ever reach someone who can figure it out. we have been broadcasting signals into space, intentionally or otherwise, for over a century, forming a sphere around us 200 lightyears in diameter. even our constellations, because they are interpretations of stars from our perspective here on earth, paint a map pointing directly at us. saying we are here. there is love here.

day started like shit. everything was going wrong at work (everything, truly everything).
most stressful shift of my year and a half working at my job. was fully done and just ready to explode, thought i was going to have a terrible rest of my day, but it actually was so stressful and exhausting that it made me stop caring about anything. i walked to the coffee shop down the street, got a coffee, tipped too much because it makes me feel happy. i put music on in my earbuds and started walking around downtown and it was amazing!! the weather is so nice today, the first warm and comfortable day of the year. i stopped into the local art center because i needed to use the bathroom (which already took a lot of courage for me) and decided to stay and walk around the gallery. it was so cool. i don't know if anyone else needs to hear this but YOU CAN JUST GO PLACES! YOU CAN JUST BE IN A PLACE! IF THERE IS NOTHING INDICATING IT'S A PRIVATE AREA OR THAT YOU AREN'T ALLOWED, PEOPLE WILL NOT CARE THAT YOU'RE THERE! AND IT WILL MAKE YOUR DAY BETTER AND MORE INTERESTING! i have pretty bad social anxiety that i can kind of forget about sometimes, this was a huge thing for me. it felt so cool to just listen to music and go places and not care and dance along the sidewalk and feel the wind in the air. my dad took me home and i cleaned my room a little bit and folded laundry i had been procrastinating about for a while, and blasted some more music on my speakers :o) life and living are cool i think.
when you look back through your life you will regret the things you didn't do more than the things you did!!! go outside!! write in a journal! draw a silly drawing!! learn to sew!!! go to an art gallery or a cafe or a library or a park or anywhere! listen to music and feel the wind!! all is well!!!! laugh and scream and cry and hug and run and jump and climb and look and think and sing and want and talk and write and!!!!!!!!!! nobody can ever take any of those away from you!!!!! GO!!!

get sillie with it - bridget 2023

here are some of the songs i listened to :o) on a ben folds kick rn

annie waits - ben folds

dr yang - ben folds

gone - ben folds

after all if i had not been awake, who would be there to hear the owl sing in the dead of night?

ive been thinkin about denis villeneuve's dune again and GOD it's such a good movie. easily one the best if not the best theater experiences ive ever had. going in i knew nothing other than seeing a poster or two and thinking it looked kinda neat. my god i was not expecting to be so enthralled i couldn't take my eyes off the screen for the whole runtime.
(i know a lot of the feeling of the world of dune comes straight from the books and i have total respect for them but i haven't read them (yet) so im just gonna be talking about the movie as its own entity)
the scale of this movie is INSANE! the design of the ships is incredible, the sets are incredible, and they used REAL SETS for a lot of the movie! not just green screen sound stages and VFX! this movie also has literally the best application of VFX ive ever seen in any movie. there's only one shot i can think of where it looks a little computer generated and not as well put together as the rest of the movie, and other than that, literally every shot is 100% believable and makes you feel like everything you see on screen is real and tactile and full of texture and history. the worlds feel so lived in and ancient, and the characters feel genuine and human. i love that in all of its insane scope, dune is still centered around humanity and humans. there are no intelligent aliens, and there are no computers or artificial intelligence. AND THE WAY THE SHIELDS WORK?? IS SO COOL??? the fact that they stop fast projectiles or will literally cause a nuclear explosions means that all of humanity has to go back to SWORDFIGHTING??? THAT'S SO FUCKING COOL!!! and again this is really praise for the books but it all feels SO extremely grounded and reasonable. the only thing that could be unrealistic is the voice, but even that is just sort of a very powerful hypnosis. everything else is 1000% believable and feels grounded in reality, and that feeling is extremely magnified by the movie's documentary style of filming.
the soundtrack is also absolutely unparalleled imo, hans zimmer knocks it out of the PARK and farther with this. just everything about it, the worldbuilding from the books, the story, the characters, the cinematography, the pacing, the VFX, the sound design, set design, costume design, casting, soundtrack, color grading. all of it. it is just flawless to me and im so obsessed with it.

aaah hi blog. i had a rly great day today!!! me and my family went to the mall as a late birthday present, it was so fun. we had lunch in the food court (which was huge, the food and the court) then we booped around places just talking the whole time about whatever. we got me some makeup !!! just very basic stuff but it still makes me rly excited aaaah (some tinted moisturizer, eyeshadow and eyeliner ^_^ !!!) then we went to a book store and got coffee in the cafe, walked around for a bit and i got two rly cool posters

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then we went clothes shopping for a little bit, got dinner all together and discussed what dnd classes we'd be (im a bard ofc)
and headed home while we listened to music together ^_^ then me and my brothers played smash bros, and after my oldest brother went to bed me and my other brother stayed up rly late watching bullet train together!!! and now im writing this ^_^ a very swell day!! and a swell weekend entirely. oh what a swell world!

grahh all the talk about AI imaging right now is so upsetting to me. ontop of the ethical problems like using artists' work and peoples' likenesses as training data without their permission, artistic value comes from human intent, and is about so much more than just the final product. i am not AT ALL interested in a song, painting, poem, animation or any other piece of art made by a computer or an algorithm just because of the end product.

(side note: this is all putting aside the concept of art made with a genuine creativity by a sentient and artistic artificial intelligence, because that's not a thing right now.)

to be fair, i think there is emotional and artistic value to be found in someone going "this is what a computer thinks human art is like, we should think about that and what that means. it's interesting BECAUSE it was made by a computer" or other very specific applications of AI imaging, but that is really not what it's being used for. art is about the process, and the emotion put into the art, and the emotion coming out of the art from the viewer's perspective and interpretation of it. i just think it's all really upsetting to see art perverted like this :/ and i think AI imaging, if used right, could be a really valuable and ethical tool, as well as any other form of AI, it has its uses to genuinely help humanity if we used it right. but it shouldn't be in the world of art. and because we live under capitalism, you know it's going to be used (and is already being used) by production companies to hire fewer artists, to cut costs, and profit more. i know the world of art has always been hostile towards artists, and this is just another part of that. but it's still upsetting. i know we'll still have great art made by real people who really care, and really want to create, but it'll be harder for them to create what they want. anyway idk why i ranted about all this it's just on my mind a lot and it upsets me to see people so enthusiastic that AI imaging is the future of art or some shit like that.
support your local artist!

i am so in love with videos of strangers playing or enjoying music together. it is absolutely human nature to love trust and care about each other and these videos showcase that so clearly and vibrantly and it makes me so happy and excited every time i see it. music is such a deeply emotional and human thing, and it's such a unique form of art. it's so natural and such a participatory thing. other forms of art don't carry the same spontaneity and universality as music. you could set up a canvas in public for people to paint together, paper for people to write together, any other form of expression, that would all be cool, but it's not quite the same as jumping unprompted into song with a stranger. anyone can hum a song from memory even if you don't know exactly what notes they are, you don't need knowledge of theory to feel music, and just hearing it makes us want to move, or sing along. i think it's really wonderful and beautiful.
here are a few of my favorite of those kinds of videos

i have a whole collection of them cause they bring me so much joy kshfgjdgs. if you have any more to share with me PLEASE absolutely email them to me bridgetneocities@gmail.com